I love fall, it’s absolutely my favorite season of the year. I love when the weather begins to cool, days get just a bit shorter and I have an excuse to drink more coffee than through the summer! The time for pumpkin everything, sweaters, boots and football brings so much joy to my heart! There are a few awesome holidays this time of year, we get fall break from school, Halloween and soon it will be Thanksgiving. Today, is Halloween, a favorite childhood holiday that is now so bittersweet. I’ve always loved to decorate our porch and hand out candy to all of the cute children as they come by decked out in the year’s most popular costumes and characters. I’m usually busy handing out candy, checking out the cute costumes or busy dressing up our dogs, yes, our dogs.
Today though, I’m feeling very sad. On this night, a night that I can usually make it through without a lot of effort, I find myself sad that my husband and I aren’t one of those parents who will bring their children by for candy. I find myself scrolling Facebook and various other social media outlets. Halloween décor has filled the stores for months now, reminding me more and more of what I don’t have an excuse to buy.
Reality sinks in, we’ll be home waiting on children to take the candy that we bought to pass out. We’re not out there with our little girl, not trick or treating like other families will get the chance to. Like other parents who’ve lost a child, we lose out on more than just the first year. We lose out on all of those fun times, the holidays, the daily memories that parents make with their children. This year, we’re missing Halloween and I know that we aren’t the only family missing out.
Do you know of a parent who might feel this way, what holidays are bittersweet for you?
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