There has certainly been a lot going on and I’m sure stress has a great deal to do with my feelings this year. We’ve moved, started a business, began renovating a house, dealt with a chronic brain condition. Most of our friends either have babies or children close to the age that our daughter would have been.
The summer like weather here in the south hasn’t helped. Temps in the 80s and thunder storms here aren’t quite the picture of a white Christmas.. I started trying to find the Christmas spirit shortly after Halloween this year. I played the usual and new Christmas songs, did all of my Christmas shopping and even went to a few parties. Nothing. Not a single feeling of yule tide glee. We’re mid renovation, so we didn’t have a tree, not a normal size one at least and that probably hasn’t helped to lessen my grinchy mood this year but none the less, we did have a tree up.
Hopefully next year will be different, I know that we will still be missing our baby girl during the holiday season but hopefully I’ll have a bit of Christmas spirit!
Where are you Christmas?